Eid Celebrations

It's eid ul fitar , again ! I can't believe Ramadan is already over. Time flies away so fast and by next month we will all be going to school back in a monotonous routine. 

Well eid is supposed to be a gift by God and before eid everyone gets busy with their preparations. Cleaning the house, sitting at the parlour ,cooking special food items , new outfits , bangles, mehindi and a lot of eidii. I think that's the best part about eid for us kids, the joy of reciving a little money from out relatives as a gift. 

Somehow this year I didn't really enjoy the eid shopping. I actually got really bored waiting for mom to decide what she wants to get.she went to go to 186387 shops just to end up buying one shalwar Kurta. Such an Aunty 

Well I had to keep myself away from getting bored , right ? 

Because the weather is just amazing

It's always really hot in karachi but since the last 2 days it's been perfect. Fresh air in the morning with coffee while sitting in the balcony listening to songs that recalled millions of memories. Mist settling on the window pane while I gaze out at the sea. It's all just so perfect 

And well of course I have to do something crazy so I ... Just see it yourself 

Burnt to peace

Invaded by my own demons 

Left alone to suffer in the darkness

And even if they saw me 

They didn't  care enough 

To help me up and take me home 

My soul in excruciating agony

But my face expressionless 

I dream to see what else can be done 

But all I am left with is more confusion

I tried everything to make them see me 

But all they saw was someone who is not me 

And now I don't want the world to see me 

Because I don't think that they will understand 

I just want you to see who I am 

A billion eyes fixed on me 

And each stare churned my body in pain 

Burning me alive 

And how could I have been happy 

In my own skin 

When they told me I wasn't worth my soul 

Eyes dried of tears 

And a pale face 

I walk away 

Just walk away

From

Everything 

Leaving my body behind 

To tremble in pain

To be judged 

To be owned by them 

I just walk away 

And I can't explain you 

The relief of escaping this world 

The relief of being free from the prison I was trapped in

And I see the broken glass behind me 

And I see your shadows hanging over me 

And I am not coming back 

Cause now I can finally breath

In peace 

Early mornings

The past week has been really stressful for me. My grandmother was hospitalized and my whole family used to stay at the hospital 24/7 leaving me home alone with my cousins.  Everything about my house depressed me so much that I decided that I would love to spend a day at my best friend’s house away from all the stress and displeasing thoughts about the worst to come. And I must say with friends like mine I don't think I have any reason to worry. They completely made me forget of the tension back at home and let me be my crazy self around them.

Well without my parents at home my time table became really horrid; in fact I had no time table. One day I wake up at 8 in the morning the next I sleep after 8 am. No doubt I fell sick from the lack of sleep.

I became like an addict, addicted to music, listening to the same songs over and over again, more and more over time. And in those sleepless nights I used to stay up to see the sunrise after Sheri. And I believe the best view of it comes from my kitchen window thus I used to sit on top of my refrigerator, open the windows and just let the lyrics sink in me while the air brushed past my face. And believe me sitting there so idle was the most relaxing thing I did throughout the past week.

Listening to the following songs on repeat

•Midnight caller - Chase and Status

•Midnight - Coldplay

•Welcome to the black parade - My chemical romance

•Watch over you - Alter Bridge

Life is just 'eh' without Art

Its summer times and i am stuck at home with nothing to do while all my friends have gone abroad for vacations.Just the thought of that sucks.Well now, imagine me lying on my bed all day thinking of the possible things that i could do to spend my time wisely but at the end of the day all my time runs out in just thinking of the crazy stuff that i really wanted to this summer. A month of my vacations is over and i have literally ended up doing nothing from my list of ' A 100 things to do this Summer'.

So today i thought , Zara why don't you just paint, something crazy and bold.And that is exactly what i did or at least tried to do. Picked up my art pad, got some inks and paint brushes and started painting without even thinking of what i really wanted to make. 

Ray Bradbury said '' Don't think.Thinking is the enemy of creativity.It's self-conscious, and anything self-conscious is lousy.''

Oh well, so according to him what i did was something creative = mission accomplished.

Now i can finally put a tick mark on one of the things in my list 

Here is what i did. 

just playing with a filter again...

and obviously something bad needs to happen 

so the ink bottle decided to tip over 

Thank god it didn't spill over my work 

 ..... i just thought the tissues looked pretty.......

But here is the out come of my boredom 

Not soo great but oh well it was fun doing an ink splatter

and here is a better picture 

I hope you guys liked it.

lazy days and the smell of fresh air

Living near the sea on the 12th floor of an apartment means that i can catch the best views of Karachi.
 Just sitting near the window,letting the wind brush past my hair and the light enter in, casting shadows on the floor, i think and breathe and do nothing else .
Shutting myself from the world at the sound of music i stare at the clouds trying to make out shapes
and if  that is considered as doing absolutely nothing, then i'll tell you one thing, that it can be soo much fun yet people call it a waste of time.
well i believe in this quote by John Lennon
 '' Time you enjoyed wasting was not wasted ''

 Just playing with filters

20 Facts You Must Know About Me

1. My name is Zara and I live in Pakistan.
2. I am 14 years old(only) and my Zodiac Star is Libra.
3. This is my first ever blog.
4. I listen to a lot of rock , alternative and pop music.
5. My favourite bands are Maroon 5 , Rise Against and My Chemical Romance. 
6. I share my room with my brother and 2 elder cousins.
7. I am obsessed with taking pictures of clouds and nature. It is soo peaceful beautiful and magical. 
8. I love watching the sun rise and set. The colors that fill the sky are just too beautiful.
9. I will probably never grow out of watching animated Disney movies.
10. I love watching romantic comedy flims.
11. I am in love with the indian movies yeh jawaani hai deewani and zindagi na mili gi dubarah.
12.I love decorating rooms. Hopefully i'll be your next top interior designer.
13.I also want to be a psychologist.Its just too damn interesting and so i am left with a hard choice.
14.I am the laziest and the most weirdest person you can ever meet.
15.The only thing I feel like i am actually good at doing is Art.
16. I love everything that is either black, turquoise or dark magenta.
17. I can't sleep without a million pillows on my bed.
18.I have always wanted a life size teddy bear.
19.I want to learn how to play a guitar since i was 7.
20.I stay in my pjs all day long. Sometimes !!